Suddenly a deep, gut-wrenching feeling came over him, causing his adrenaline to speed up beyond control and his head to become extremely light, in an almost fainting kind of way, as the thought of having to reveal his dark secret to her popped into his head. “You can do it. You HAVE to do it! You HAVE to tell her and let her be her own judge about it!” he said to himself in a scolding voice. He took a deep breath and tried to clear his mind from the horrible thought that had just reared its ugly face to reality and tried to solely focus on the positive attributes at hand: Carey!